Why, why, why, do I continue to torture myself with women, thus far they have been nothing but heartache and pain to me!
Siniana, who left me all but standing on the altar. My heart was never quite right after her.
Athene, regal and strong, she never even allowed herself to care at all. Well, truth be told, I was rebounding from Siniana anyways, I think she knew that.
Treiria, a lovely girl but mad as a hatter. More of an extended fling really, but I did grow to care for her.
Cass, my dear sweet Cass,……………..Gods I had it for her badly,…………..I’ll just leave it at that.
There have been others, many others, but they didn’t really mean anything, just physical distractions from the everyday boredom of life.
Why?
The answer, my dear journal, is painfully clear, even if I must say so myself.
I love them ………… all of them …………every single one of them.
They all still hold a place in my heart. Sure they ended in pain, but what risk doesn’t hold the possibility for failure?
Besides, they didn’t kill me, and my mother always said that whatever doesn’t kill me, will only make me stronger.
I can almost hear her saying it right now.
What she never said though, was that you would carry it with you for the rest of your life, that it would become a part of you, that it may even change you, if you’re not careful.
