Dear journal, what a very busy and wonderful few days it has been since I have last put pen to paper and written anything within your sacred pages.
So much has happened, in such a short span, that I will be hard pressed to fully relate all of it.

Petricia (there I wrote it down!) and I have spent much time together and our relationship continues to grow steadily. I am slightly concerned that perhaps we are moving too fast, but she seems content and happy, and I am happier than I can ever recall being, so I push those concerns away and let nature take its course.

Cass has returned, and to my surprise has not offered any explanation as to where she has been or why she left? There was a time when I would have pursued it and questioned her about it, perhaps even demanded some explanation (not that it would have amounted to much.) But that time has long since passed. We were together for a short time, we shared each other’s passion, perhaps through a time when we both needed it the most, but it is over now and it seems we have both moved on.

Any concerns I may have had about the interactions between Petricia and Cass seem to have been laid to rest as they both have been cordial and nice to each other. Truth be told, it was Cass I was worried about, she can be so cold with her comments sometimes, while hiding behind her mask and speaking with others, I would hate for there to be any animosity between them due in any way, shape or form to me.

I have been promoted within the ranks of the Guild. What a pleasant surprise that was! Unexpected to say the least, I was very proud to accept when asked. Not that I hadn’t ever thought about the possibility, I just thought that with all of my studies and the time that I spend away from the halls, I wouldn’t be able to fulfill the responsibilities.

However, I think I am coming to learn that perhaps it’s not always about the amount of time that is spent, but more so the quality of that time and the way that it is used that really defines the affect we have on others. I will always do the very best I can do with the time I have.

I would be remiss if I didn’t mention an incident that happened directly after the Guild meeting.

I only recall having a few drinks at Lulu’s bar and then abruptly coming out of unconsciousness with my face resting, rather uncomfortably, upon the rough exterior of a tree.

Yes, I believe that’s the correct terminology, “coming out of unconsciousness.”

I did not awake, as I was not asleep, but rather I emerged from the blackness of an alcohol induced state of unconsciousness, “passed out” some might even say.

Any way you wish to look at it I found myself in the midst of an uncomfortable situation, one that involved quite a lot of chatter and concern in the Guild crystal. Standing over me was a Guild mate that I had never met before, Meztress, and she wanted me to take some kind of potion. Her concern was noted and I did appreciate it, but the whole situation was rather surreal and served as a reminder to me why I cannot allow myself to fall prey to the lie that I can handle my alcohol.

While it is true that not every time I drink I will lose control, it is also very true that every time I do drink there is the potential for me to lose myself,………and once that happens anything is possible.

And quite frankly journal, I am far too happy and content to lose myself again.